Desert Flower Blooms

Desert Flower Blooms

Friday, October 11, 2013


Good morning my friends.  I am feeling "green" this morning.   

Lately, dh (dear husband) and I are experimenting with our diet.  Now even as I write this, it resonates in my spirit... it is a "trying to push the edge of the envelope" attitude.  How much can I eat of my old foods and still keep my blood glucose numbers down? There is that, I still want it my way, rebellious attitude.  This is why I don't succeed on "diets."  It is basically, cheating!  Why do I do this?  I don't know.  Seriously.  

I know what is good for my body and yet I constantly "reward" myself with destructive things.  Okay, I guess I should explain.

Recently, we came upon the Rawtill4 way of eating.  So, we decided that we would try this as a transition way of eating, before going completely Raw.  For me it is a comfort thing.  Something about having a warm meal in the evening is comforting.  I need to find a better substitute for relaxing and winding down, instead of using food.   We did really good and were absolutely "clean" for ONE day.  I was so proud of us!   

We are running close to the end of the pay period and finances, so we don't have the variety of food that we had in the beginning.  So our food selection yesterday was a tad limited.  But instead of using the money we do have on good clean food, we bought junk instead.  Yes, you read that correctly...

It started with a cheat of cooked food at 2 pm instead of waiting till 4 pm.  I had some left over baked potatoes from the night before and tomatoe soup.  That doesn't seem so bad right?  I knew I was not supposed to have raw food after cooked food so....  I had chips and candy.  Yes!  

You got it!  I went on a binge.  I set myself up for failure.  So, once again I wasted money and my health on a bag of chips and candy instead of getting the things we need for more variety.  Granted, it wasn't that much money, but my blood glucose number reflected the binge.  

I think it was Kristina Carrillo-Bucaram that said, "You are eating today, for tomorrow."  Well, she was definitely right. Today is my tomorrow, and I can tell by how I feel and the numbers on my glucometer that I cheated yesterday.

I would like to say, "I have learned my lesson," but I know that is not the last time I will fall off the wagon.  I know that I need to be prepared and plan my eating, the night before, for the next day.  I need to get to the root of why I do this to myself.  I have seen too many amazing changes to turn back now and it has only been a couple of weeks since we started this journey.

Our life is truly in transition now.  Not just with the food but also, socially and spiritually.  We are about to move to a less expensive home.  We are making some religious changes, too.  We just moved to this little town 6 months ago and "I" am still trying to get acclimated.  I am striving to get out and be more sociable.  AND we are changing our food choices!  This is a lot to take on at one time.  But all of our lives are crazy busy like this.  We are constantly changing.  I just want to be changing for the better.

So, today is a new day.  I commit to One Day at a Time.  Today is the only day I have right now.  This minute is the minute God has given me and I desire to make good, healthy choices for me and my body.  

If you have these same struggles, it would be helpful if you could share some of your thoughts and tips for overcoming these temptations. And, what are some good substitutions for "winding down" at the end of the day, besides eating "comfort foods?"  

Please leave your suggestions and encouraging comments below.  

hugs and blessings!

1 comment:

KatInNM said...

I'm so proud of you, Terasee, for taking on all these changes. I know it's not easy! How about a walk for winding down at the end of the day, maybe followed by a cup of a favorite tea? And/or prepare something "legal" you like earlier in the day so it's waiting for you when you need it later. Good luck with all this. Love you!