A third round of antibiotics! NOT good. So tired of being tired. The doctor took a look at the wound on my breast and said..."Nope, that should be completely gone by now."
Frankly, I agree with her. I don't want to go to that dark place of "what if?" So I am trying to think positively. I actually am not making a judgement at all.
It is times like these when I KNOW I am not in control. I have to depend on the Almighty and Eternal One to see me through whatever comes. I know He loves me and only wants the best for me. It is ME that is the problem.
I realize that I have not been good to my body at all. I have abused it horribly with food and lack of exercise. This is what I have sown and so I must reap that which I have sown. I must depend upon His mercy for forgiveness and His grace to face the consequences of my actions with courage and dependence on Him.
The prayer I find myself saying is the Serenity Prayer. Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
So, there are going to be some changes made. Stay tuned.